30 June 2005
Busy
Ever since school terms started, I had been busying almost everyday. Hardly I'll have the time to come online during weekdays. Actually by right now, I should be sitting right infront of the computer updating my blog but should be at the bathroom taking a hot bath. Well, anyway I just finishing dining with my mom, so think is better to take a rest before taking a bath.
What keeps me busy everyday? Haha.... busying doing revision, homework, doing music theory. Hardly I'll have the time to practice cello too. This whole week, only Monday I had practiced. Well, that means from Monday till Wednesday, I didn't blog but only today. Guess I'm still not very good in managing my schedule. Well, I'll re-schedule it during the weekends when I get my new time-table tomorrow.
Here's something that I'd like to keep it as a memory. I tripped and fell down on Tuesday when I was leaving the class. Shit, it was so embrarrasing when all guys looked at me, but I don't feel embarrass at that moment, but only when I was thinking back the way I fall was kinda funny and I just can't help laughing at myself.
It was so naughty of Mr Hari to remind me about the incident on Wednesday morning. He came to my table and asked me to tie my shoe laces properly and make I don't trip and fall again
Today during S&W lesson, we ran 3 rounds, means 1.2km! Goosh! But I'm feeling rather okay and beside my NAFA test will be in 3 week's time. Hopefully I can pass norx...
Heard from my c'mate that we must pass our swimming test too, shit, I don't know how to swim but I wanted to learn but orh, I not dare to wear swimming suit lah, cuz no figure sia. Haha... anyway, I'm looking forward to Wild Wlid Wet outing with my friend.
Guess that's about all, take care everyone.
I hope I'll luv myself more
19:20
27 June 2005
Rather honest of him
No matter how early I went out of house to school, I was always late for the first class. So today I was late for OFA lesson, luckily I've finish doing those assignments that are required to be done during today's lesson.
After which we walked to the auditorium for the talk by principle, Mr Tan. It was so damn bored that I fall asleep while he's giving the talk.
Everythings ended an hour early of what they predicted. So we were given an hour break after which have to proceed back to class for lecture. Sianz 1/2 when we heard that we're not allow to go back home. Haha... so left with no choice but to obey the instruction given by Mr Hari, our class advisor.
So it was ADF (Accounts Fundamental), Mr Cheo took our attendance and he said something very honestly. Actually we do not need to come back for lesson and he dismissed us. Haha... rather honest of him right? He was a lecturer... I was really surprised for his honesty.
Guess tomorrow he'll go into details of accounts no more chatting session with us. Haha... and that's what I've been waiting for ever since school term resumed.
And guess something was amiss with my previous template, so gotten this one, hopefully the same thing won't happen again. And this template will last long. Haha... very tired and lazy of having to change it again and again.
That's about all...
I hope I'll luv myself more
17:34
26 June 2005
Was early this morning, all thanks to second brother who wakes me up early in the morning just to tell me that something happened to the CPU. But when I woke up, everything's in a good condition. Sigh... I do not wish to say anything more about him.
Meet Michelle in the bus and we head off to practice together. Haha, was so hungry so I ate up the snack that I had brought there from home.
This afternoon we had our 91th meeting, sigh... again it ended approximately 2.5hrs. Haix... wasted my whole afternoon for practicing cello and doing revision for my BDF.
Reached home from 6pm until now, still busying with the theory stuffs for my juniors. Sigh...
Anyway, I'm going to come up with a bulletin board for zestistic, maybe I'll creat another blog and post everything about zestistic over there. And anybody can visit the page from my blog. Once is completed, I'll update over here.
Haix... too many things pending for my actions le.
I hope I'll luv myself more
20:47
Is already 12:02AM and I'm still online, it was so fortunately of me that my mom had actually fallen asleep from watching the tv show. If not, doubt I can still be sitting right infront of the computer now even though tomorrow is Sunday.
It was so nice and generous of Audrey for printing out those theory notes for me. I wishes I'd pay her back but she insisted not to take. Perhaps, I should buy her something just to show my appreciation bah... wondering what should I get for her and her family. Anyway, her mom's helping me out with my theory practice, means her mom will marks for me. Thanks aunty!
It's late now and tomorrow still 've combine practice at BLCC. But my stuffs weren't prepared yet, sigh... I mess up the whole room again with all books lying here and there. So mad at myself, tomorrow gonna get everything back in apple pie order soon. And hopefully I can finish my revision for BFD, only manage to memories half of unit 1, still 've another half to cover, OMG!
Sigh... tomorrow still 've meeting, sianz... 'll be wasting quite a lot of time for that. How I wish I can don't go but I think SQ will be mad about it. Sigh... so is better for me to go. So tired, but was thinking of my junior's theory practice and also their practical practice. Hopefully they'll appreciate what I've done for them.
Hm... that's about all... I'm very sleepy already...
I hope I'll luv myself more
00:02
25 June 2005
Actually today I went out of house at 11.15am, I walk towards the prime market because I intend to take cab to practice. Ever since I graduate from BLSSCO, most of the time I was late or skipped the lesson. Sigh... but who knows that I manage to fetch a cab at 11.45am... sigh... was an hour late for lesson. Although he didn't say anything, but I still feel bad about it... hopefully I'd have a habit of not only being punctual but also being early.
Reached there saw Mdm Peng... sia lah... I scare that she'll ask me to return cello back to school. Haha... so scare sia... but luckily she didn't. But one thing for sure is that, she doens't seems to look happy when she saw me. Well... I can understand...
Celebrated Michelle birthday... sigh... it was so forgetful of me that tomorrow's her birthday. Haix... but I given her a treat... of prawn noodle... then shared ice milo with her. Haha... hopefully she enjoyed herself... =)
Saw Audrey's sister, Stella. Haha... they look pretty alike. But sigh... didn't 've a chance to chat with her, perhaps... next time bah. Haix... also so forgetful of me... should 've brought Ryan's birthday gift to Audrey's. But see... I forgotten again. Hai... don't know when then I can pass it to him. Shit...
Audrey passed me quite many theory paper sia la... but she didn't wanna take the money for all the print out she printed for me. Haha... a lot sia... Jo you wanna? Me help you photocopy also. But be prepare to pay me near 4 bucks... maybe not enough also... but is really a lot. So you want, you tag at my tagboard k?
That's about all... take care everyone.
Here's a nice pic... take a look. Haha... taken on 4 June after our SYCO concert.
Mu He, Audrey, our instructor: Mr Ji Hui Ming, Xuan Wei, Chong Hwee, Percie, Ryan, Jialin, Elgin and Jolene.
Haha... thanks Jo's for helping out with my staccato...
I hope I'll luv myself more
18:36
23 June 2005
Went out of house pretty early this morning but still I was late for class. It was because I couldn't board the bus 31, until 7:50AM then one empty bus 31 came.
First lesson was accounts fundamental, we had ice breaking games first before our lesson. Learn lots of definition of accounts and the differences between book keeping and accounting. Actually accounts fundamental is almost the same as book keeping, but why must they explained till so complicated and difficult for us to understand? And the lecturer even make it more worse by explaining further to us which is not necessary... confusing me only.
Sport & wellness lesson ran 2 rounds... I think 1 round is 400m, so 2 will be multiply by 2 means 800m... wow... so siong for me. Haven't been running since my 2.4km NAFA test last year... haix... but okay lah... cuz afterall, I loves jogging. *Bleahx* ;P
Ate prawn noodle, quite nice. Anyway, one thing that I wanna praise about ITE Collage East is that, the food courts food are sold in reasonable price. Very economical lor... =) Then there's another cafeteria commercing in July. Then we still 've campus haven, burger bluster... where ever you're in the campus, you can find food to buy any where. Haha... just being a little too exaggerated... but is really... doesn't look like a school lor. Haha...
Then went to tampines mall with Jing Jing to have her photo taken, then we went back to school le. Haha... so tired... no mood to shop.
Mr Hari seems to be late almost every lesson. In addition, he used almost 45mins on orientation stuffs. Sigh... then we starts business fundamental lesson pretty late. I believe other class has already gone through what we went through today and even learnt unit 2 already. Haix...
It was so theorical that I nearly fallen asleep. I really have no idea what I learnt today, but I brought my assignment books back home so that I can do revision. But guess is very late now, and I've no time to write any notes, very sleepy. But I'll make use of tomorrow journey to school to do a revision.
Erm... OFA learnt keyboarding. Haha... I can type quite fast but not using the correct method lor. Hm... here's a very good webby to learn keyboarding, go and try it out... http://www.goodtyping.com
Tomorrow lesson ends at 1pm, so happy. Haha... below is my schedule for tomorrow:
2.30pm - Shower
3.00pm - Understanding and notes session of Business Fundamental (BFD)
4.00pm - Break
4.15pm - Revision of BFD
5.30pm - Practice cello, concentration on scales
6.15pm - Exercise pieces
7.15pm - Dinner
7.30pm - Bach Suites
8.30pm - Brief revision of Accounts fundamental
9.300pm - Wash up
9.45pm - Turn off
Hopefully I can follow tightly to it. Hm... saturday most likely will have Mr Ji's practice. Well, this whole week only practiced today, so really hopes that I'll practice tomorrow just to be safe.
This whole week spent quite a lot of money, so sad sia. But all these money cannot be saved de, cuz is purchasing of school stuffs. Haix... and my ez-link topped 2 times, once yesterday morning and once today afternoon, next week, hopefully Monday we get our new ez-link card and please, for heaven sake, student's fares please! I can't afford to top my ez-link once everyday 2 days!
Update more tomorrow...
Sigh... was asked to dye black for my hair, but I don't think I'll do anything about it. And guess gotta spend the weekend to look for a nice and cheap black school shoes le. Haix... gotta spend money again. Well, Dad has not much money left, mom I'm not too sure, but I suppose so, so guess I'll 've to use my own money.
Anyway, I met him today and we had a short conversation... haha... asking for my numbers sia... =)
That's about all... good night...
I hope I'll luv myself more
22:52
22 June 2005
Today I left the collage at 11am plus, then went down to CT to look for Gina, then met mani frenz. Haha... then stay about 2pm lyk tis went back home le.
Reached home Kelly sms me and asked if I wanna go to JP. Then I say yes lor, then was waiting for her sms when she settle her things at B.S. Who knows that she took such a long time (1hr) to help them to settle the printer. But in the ends, still not yet settle. Sigh... then I was at home waited and waited till so long that I fallen asleep.
Then when I woke up then just saw her sms saying that she'll be meeting me at bus 30 at 4.20pm. Then I was like so mad at her lor. Cuz I thought she'll be there for awhile only but who knows that she was there for an hour yet the printer is not yet fixed. Sigh... don't know then don't help le mah... haix... cannot stand her
Then I quickly wake up and went out of house. Saw elder kor at the bus stop then he was like keep questioning me why am I here blah blah blah... cannot stand him also lor. Sigh... then I was so frustrated le. Some more, she's late. Alamak, makes my blood boils... then was like wanting to shout at her but I control and control luckily I didn't...
Hm... went to the wallet shop to get Ryan's birthday present. Thought of passing it to him today during the syco reception but he didn't went so did I.
One more thing I was so furious was the ez-link card. Sianz... it was still in the adult fares. Alamak... this morning just top up 10 bucks but now left only 4bucks... (o_oll)
Don't know what's wrong with sis. Sigh... she was wanting me to help her out with the online report of taxation contribution. Then I really don't know how lor... I tried many times le, but still cannot. She was beside me just now, but she also don't know how. I was just telling her to called that person who asked her to do this via internet see if he/she knows how to submit the report. Then she called her hubby to call that fellow. Then I just telling her to ask her hubby to report once he called that person. Then she angry le ley... alamak... then say what... she said: "Ai ya... when got problem then know how to ask only lah. Ask you to help me do one thing also cannot."
Sigh... I know what she referring to lor. She was saying about that time I was asking her about whether to take up admin or accounts better. Well... nevermind... I know le... my family members no ones is there for me. Haix... nevermind... I'll be strong... I'll be determine and independent to make my own decision in future. Sigh...
Feeling so hurt... I really wanted to help her. But she said that to me. Haix... nevermind... nevermind... even second kor heard our conversation... and he also says that is jie de fault... haix... I didn't pick the fight lor... but she shouted at me first... some more... I was feeling very well... then I frustrated and shouted back at her. Sigh... she only knows how to say others only lor. Haix... nevermind... nevermind...
So tired... but think I'm going to practice cello le.
This time I die le... mom found out I bought a wallet. But that one wasn't mine... is for Ryan's... hopefully she don't question me about that... please...
Haix... I running out of money le. Sianz... most of the time... I really think that my parents was lucku enough to 've me such a sensible daughter lor.
I paid my school fees myself, my uniforms, my assignments books, my ez-link, my internet and my handphone bills myself. Some more... I bought the chinese medicine for mom's to cure her cough but she never brew it and drink. Sigh... wasted another 20 bucks. Haix... bought le, she must drink mah... haix...
Haix... So sad...
I hope I'll luv myself more
20:06
Finally we've come to end for the orientation. Tomorrow gonna 've all my lessons. Hm... it starts at 8 but still ends at 5pm cuz in between we've two hours break after S&W. Sianz... don't know where to go maybe going to the learning resource center to do my revision for accounts fundamental.
Hm... the IT lab was like so well equipped. Even the PC keyboard was like the lappy keypad. So nice sia... I also wanna 've that kind of keyboard. Wahaha...
Hm... now in CT the library... with Gina. Haha... came down here to purchase my polo tee. Hm... hopefully can wear everyday lor, if not waste my money for purchasing two polo ts ley... so pray hard for me okay? Heex...
So sianz... today actually SYCO still 've reception de, but I never go. Too tired le... then these few days never practice cello, so hope that I can do a make up. If not he's going mad and he'll definitely nag at me.
Hm... that's about all...
I hope I'll luv myself more
13:09
21 June 2005
So tired but was waiting for elder brother to buy me supper. Opps, guess I'm gaining weights soon... haha... but I'll exercise de... sound like real.
Guess I'm not going to do any appeal of course le. Cuz for the first year both admin and accounting studied the same thing. Business Fundamental, Accounts Fundamental, Office Application and DS. Only the second year we're different.
Auditing and costing will only be learn in year two. Haha... not very sure what elective I wanna take. Hm... let me see...
Banking and Financial Service
Business Law
Business Statistics
Business Taxation
Human Resource Administration
Personal Taxation
Principles Management
Public Relations
Tourism products and services
Guess most probably I'll be taking bu banking and financial service, human resource management and also public relations bah... haha... not very sure how it was grouped and also the number of elective we must choose. Anyway... only interested in these 3.
Heard from Julia that only students with GPA of 3.5 then can get into higher nitec 2nd yr. So I gotta work very hard to get into it cuz I realli wanna learn auditing and costing. I wanna take up the challenge.
CCA open house this afternoon, haha... I already 've some CCA that I wanna join in mind le. So didn't 've a difficult time hunting for one. I joined the Co op and also the orchestra. Too pity there isn't any string ensemble.
Today 've my lunch with Jing jing, julia and her classmate at burger bluster. Ate one fish burget and cost me for $2.20. The shared the fries with Julia, cost me for another $0.50. Then bought the pad lock for our locker shared with jing jing at $0.90 and lastly I bought my pe shirt and polo t costed me $14.30 in total. Haix... ytd dad gave me 10 bucks today only 8 bucks guess tmr I better be prepared to receive only 6 bucks. Haix... I aware tt he run out of money le. So tmr going to top my ez-link card using my nets. Haix... still charging at adults fare. Sianz... 2 days gotta top up once.
I hope I'll luv myself more
22:34
20 June 2005
My first day of school
Woke up so early today, at 5am but slept at 2 near 3am yesterday night. Didn't 've a good sleep so now is pretty tired, so wasn't in the mood to practice cello.
I made up my decision at only 7:20AM this morning, is actually damn risky. I couldn't make up my mind, but because I need more time to travel to simei, I just walked out of the house like this without thinking any further. I was totally lost... and feeling sad and nearly cried when I wa s on my way to school.
Luckily I get to know Jing Jing in CT temp class and so I've someone to accompany me. Both of us are in QF a mixture of O graduates and progression students. But I think most likely, the group of people I mixed with are not belongs to the hardworking girl type. Haha... I was wanting to request to get into progression class, means either QG or QH.
Hm... having my lumch with Mei Jun and Julia... haha... very happy when I was with them hopefully we can get together... but sigh... I was in QF, Julia QG, and Mei Jun QH. Three of us different class sia. Haix...
I've a urge of appealing for admin in ct when Mrs Ng looked so stunned and surprised why am I in simei. Because she strongly think that I should take up admin...
Orientation ends at about 3pm plus but I stayed back to ask my CA about transferring classes. Then after which went down to Jp to meet Gina and we went back to Alpha Log. After coming down, when I was about to mention Davi, I met her. Haha... and definitely I won't miss the chance chatting with her. So we chatted... until Runni came. Haha... he seems pretty good... guess he has recovered. Happy.
Davi was a formal student's of Mr Hari (My CA). Haha... and he called her her second name, Ha-b-Ha... And find out lots of things from her. She says that is not difficult but very important, you must understands and everything will be easy for you. Haha... and one thing that I paused for quite a long time to think was when she said out of 4 courses (Admin, Accounts, Logistic and Business IT) every courses can take except admin cuz she've many friends who graduated from Business studies admin with ITE cert they can't find any job. Haha... so her advise for me is to take accounts. If I really wanted to stay put there, then think I'll 've to purchase 1 blouse and 1 polo t, one pe shirt, one bermudas and 1 black shoes. Again, 've to spend money... sianz... still 've books haven't purchase yet. Sob... all my money again...
Uniform, shirt etc wise already cost me up $32... (One blouse, one polo t, one pe shirt and one bermudas) and books wise... think most probably $50 for 3 assignment books bah. Then shoes... the most I'm willing to buy is $28...
Anyway, the whole enviornment is damn nice... but still I won't take that into consideration when planning of my future...
I hope I'll luv myself more
20:45
19 June 2005
Confused, contradicted and vexed.
Still couldn't make up my mind of which course to take up, but slightly better I've a ratio of 6:4, Accounts: Admin.
Now, I just wanna finish reading up everything about admin and accounts. I'll no longer take friend into consideration of course to choose. Afterall, friend cannot be with you everytime and every where you go to. And why wanna wait for another 2 yrs then learns to be independent and why not starts off early now?
There're many things still waiting for my actions in my pending list. I've to help my sis to report her tax contribution using online system, but I having some difficulties, guess tomorrow I'll help her with it bah. Then still not yet finish reading up in details about the two courses but hopefully by tomorrow night, I'll 've my decision finalse.
I was taken rather aback this evening when he sms me saying that he wanna ask me out for dinner on Monday. Haha... wondering what's wrong with him, and guess he've been behaving strangly today. But I hope, I'm thinking too much...
Friends... a couple of them I've been worrying. But now... pretty okay, glad that they've got at least a course to study. Haha... school gonna resume soon and guess we'll very busy with our own time-table. Haha... so hardly will 've the time to meet out but still, I hope we can try our best to meet out at least twice a month.
And also, so forgetful of me. I haven't bought my staple and eraser yet. Haha... Monday school liao ley... hopefully tomorrow I rem. Haha... hm... that's about all.
So tiring... then tomorrow still ve to go for prac.. sianz...
I hope I'll luv myself more
00:22
16 June 2005
Life is so torturing to me, I'm no longer in the contradicted stage but I'm sad for having to leave my 7 years of friend... I hope I won't regret for making such a decision...
I've decided to take up accounting in simei... I shouldn't be worrying about anything now all I've to do is to study hard and put in all my commitments as well as efforts in it. I've made such a decision because I believe I'll have a variety of choices to choose from no matter I do well in it or not.
During the course training, I hope I can nurture out greater interest for accounts. If I happens to do well and make it to poly then I'll be extremely elated and I believe all my friends will be happy for me. But if I happens to fail or didn't manage to do well, then the most is to look for admin job after graduation, is much more easier instead of taking administration in the first place and then realise that that's not the kind of job that I like and spend time taking up private courses again right? Sigh... the most I'll be wasting the 3yrs of studying accounts in ITE.
Making this decision is really so cruel to me, I cried because afterall, all my friends are still staying at Clementi. 7 years of friend... and some close friend that I just get to know last year but now all of us couldn't be together le... sob sob... haix...
I'll blog again later...
Helping out mom with her garlic... if not she's going to nag at me le...
Tata...
I hope I'll luv myself more
13:55
15 June 2005
Woke up at 6:51AM this morning and is definitely for sure that I'm gonna be late if I'm going to take a shower. But I really left with no choice as my hair haven't been washed for 2days after the rebonding. So I washed it this morning and after work, washed it for a damn long duration just to make sure it's clean.
Today was my last day of work at Alpha Log, feeling so sad of leaving them. Had my whole meals free every breaks and even lunch, Soe given us (Sarinah and I) a treat. So generous of her. Hm... total I think she spent on $5.60 on my meals this afternoon and also she given me a photo frame. Sarinah wise, as usual she bought me chocolates... so sweet of her...
Ah Hui's and Jenny aunts plan to treat me swensens but I do not want. Trying to reject their kindness by working OT (cuz they're not working overtime this evening as they planned to go eat swensens after working hours). Haha... thnx anyway...
Kaur purposely bough her camera to take pictures of me and the other colleagues but I refused, so bad of me arh... now then I realise that it was my lost. Cuz they actually planned to send it to my home. Sigh... hopefully Friday when I went back to return my shirts, access card and also the locker key, I'll 've a chance to take pics with them. Haha...
Hm... Faz wise... he earns it. Haha... he took pics of Davi, Salmah and I. And also the two of us, Davi sis took for us. Haha... but don't think is nice... oh well... nevermind, afterall... it's just a memory...
Nah... now work is over and all I'm worrying about is which course I should choose. See... I'm so contradicted but it seems like no ones can actually give me a good advise in a way that makes me think no more and immediately I know my decision. Sigh... I've been thinking and thinking each an every night... and my parents... doesn't aware about it and even if I share with them, they'll still say, just go for the course you like... but my friends are different... although is a minority group of poeple who actually analyse to the future for me but they're just much more better than anyone advise given by my family members.
And that guy, Alvin's my hp officer always not serious about it. Sigh... always tell ask him something he'll said another. Like that time I was doing the packaging and pallets all over. He was asking me out of the blue that "Aren't I scared that he'll hug me suddenly"? Haha... by all means if he wanna... haha... then today during morning tea break, walked to me and say thanks for the chocolate, but... he say that so small, not enough... KNS la... haha... anyway... at least, he said thanks... Faz too... but Faz wishes me good luck... and many other ppl too. Then when we're waiting for life, I was asking him (Alvin) whether Admin better or Accounts better, he answered back with Housewife better. Haix... waste my saliva...
Davi sis told me that she was graduate from CT ITE Accounting. I asked if it's difficult she said a little but if you're hardworking then it should be alright. Beside... shorthands is no longer important but to me it was a vice versa. I think that shorthands are very important... esp if you wanna become an admin clerk... but she said is not longer important. Haha... and she told me if I wanna learn, she's willing to teach me...
Haix... ppl who encourage me to take up accounts are as follows:
Davi sis...
Lynn...
Sarinah...
2nd Salmah
Soe soe
MH...
Ppl who encourage me to take up admin are as follows:
That aunty who told me that my dad striked 20k of 4Ds before
Guess Jo's too...
See the numbers of votes? Haix... it was so obvious...
Nah... I've no much time to think and reconsider again and again... I've to make up my mind latest by tomorrow... and I believe many friends are waiting for my answer... so Jialin... quick be quick... made up ur mind quick...
I miss everyone... esp Davi sis... cuz even though I'm not very close with her but she really given lots of advise to me in my studies etc... salmah... someone who's very lenient, hopes that she can always be strong, hold back her tears if she feels like crying... sarinah sis... may she found a stable job quick... tml she's going for a banking interview... hopefully she gets it. Soe... hopefully she knows how to control her finance... and stop spending money like water... Amy's... hopefully she 'll at least try to share out her problems and not keeping everything inside herself... Runni... hopefully he'll 've a change in his character... so hot-tempered sia... hopefully he's healthy and back to work tomorrow, Faz... pls don't take advantage of someone like me... who's willing to learn and do everything on one's accord. Everything is best to do yourself... and don't assume and assume... k? Do your job seriously... Alvin's... be more serious lah! U... everytime talk rubbish only... haha...
Ah Hui's and Jenny aunts thanks for your kindness and also Kaur... thanks for you hugs... haha... I'll miss everyone of you ...
I hope I'll luv myself more
23:14
14 June 2005
Missing u...
Tomorrow gonna be my last day at Alpha Log, sigh... missing them so much and I just can't wait for tomorrow.
Yesterday was my most happiest day working throughout all these months. The laughter we always made that always attract crew leader attention.
When I was on my way back home this evening, then I discovered that the cookies that I've bought for my colleagues is not enough so my hp officer, I bought them ferroe rocher chocolates. Afterall, the cookies cost my expensive than the chocolate.
Having a hard time getting a card for Sarinah, and Salmah... but walked into Popular thought that I'd get some nice and cute one but none, so walked out and walked to Gift land, same thing, even though I spent a long time looking and hunt for one, it just happens that there is none suitable for the two of them. Then walked to Card's and Such, took the longest of time looking for one, but just didn't manage to find one. So wasted an hour just to look for cards. Haix... then went to GP and finally I got one for Sarinah. Hm... there're many things that I wanna tell her and so guess later gotta burn mid-night oil. Haha...
Have a chat with Davi after OT, haha... so friendly of her. Sigh... everytime like this.... when I get closer or understand someone better, then we'll 've to say goodbye... hopefully tomorrow I'll remember to take her hp no from her. Haha... yeah! Btw, her brother was sick, sigh... poor thing. Wondering should I buy him three legs water or not... think better not, cuz afterall... 'll be wasting my money only... haha... cuz he smoke ma.
Haix... so pathetic... was asked to run the old line. Haix... do until I siao. Haha...
Anyway, I get my new hair do le, all "thanks" to my sis. Haix... having me to waste money only... don't think it suit me afterall but what to do? Like I said before, I detest the word "Regret" so I'll never be regret.
Hm... wanna a sweater or jacket whatever u called it. Haha... cost me $30... less or more, forgotten is from HangTen... erm... quite nice I like the design hm... getting it pretty soon too... haha...
Nah... see... I cannot work... I spent $90 on gift, $120 on new hair-do, and ate quite a lot too. And guess my weight gonna gain some more from Thurs onwards... haha... cuz never work le mah... sure eat the whole day. Haix...
I'm so tired... I'll definitely miss Salmah, Davi, Amy, Sarinah and Soe the most! Haix... cuz they're my closest colleagues over there... haix...
See... I miss them too much that I don't even 've a time to sit down and think which course I wanna take. Afterall... accounts will be a better choice but I'm aware that I'll definitely struggle but if I can overcome this, I'll definitely earn much more money than being an admin clerk. And also I'll 've a better future...
My plan is to take up admin first and do well in it then make it to the poly and from there, I take up courses relevant to accounts. But it might be a wrong choice, I might even struggle more by that time. Haix... so contradicted... and confused... but I'll 've to make up my mind soon. Cuz Monday's the resume of school day le..
I hope I'll luv myself more
22:17
11 June 2005
Contradicted
Actually today I won't be late for practice but because I just wanna update my blog and therefore I was late.
The weather was like so damn warm when I was waiting for bus and cab. After standing under the sun for 10mins or so then I realise that I've left my bow at home, shit... damn shit isn't it? And guess tomorrow I'll 've to bring the bow alone to practice, and guess it will attract lots of people eyeing at me.
During practice, Ji's said about many things. He was asking me how much have I earned cuz is time to buy a cello. He don't force me to buy if I don't think it's necessary for me. But he really wished me to 've my personal cello and even buy a hard case and carry it to practises... And one thing that my six sense keep telling me is that Ji's will definitely offer me free lesson once I bought my personal cello and that provided that I've shown a greater improvements and potentials in it.
Another thing that he totally surprised me was that he asking how old am I. And I answered him that I was 18 and he even said that I should 've a boyfriend now, but I don't think is a good time to in a relationship now. Cuz, afterall we're still young and if even I 've a bf, most likely he'll be a student too and dount he'll 've the money. Right? And I'll never ever forget what my colleague told me that I won't get married so young, like mid 20s... near 30s... and that's why I don't wanna be in love as I'm afraid of being hurt by the one you loves most. He even said that my bf 've to seek his approval first. Haha... and even I get married one day, I also 've to carry cello with me if he (my hubby) don't allow, then don't marry him. Haha... so funny, just can't help laughing at what he had said.
One more thing to add, if I really don't think that is time for me to buy a cello, he don't mind giving me a little more time to think and at the same time save money to buy a even better cello for myself. 1k cello and 2k cello makes a gigantic difference...
And today guess is the only time that I felt like this, I just love cello practices so much especially with my juniors. Evertime there's this little improvement in them, it actually makes me feel so happy and so proud of them. They're so sensible... so adorable. Loving them...
Received a sms from Gina saying that she manage to gets into Admin in CT. I've a sudden urge to run back home to check my letter box for my appeal result but still I stayed and hangs out till late night and now not even 've my make up removed... is already 2:16AM.
Anyway... I practiced cello from 12pm to 2pm then we've a meeting till around 5pm and from there practicing with juniors from 5 to 7pm plus then went to JP to buy some goodies for colleagues cuz I'm resigning on Wednesday and they really treated me so nice... despite of my stupid fucking attitude that I always showed to them, they still won't take it to heart, still cares and treat me as one of their own daughter. Haix... so many aunties wanna me to be their daughter. Haha... guess I'll miss them till siao... haix... all of a sudden feeling so sad...
I bought 29packs of famous amous cookies for them, each contains 100g and total cost me only $84... and I lied to my mom that it only cost me $30 but she was already nagged like hell. Sigh... until I showed her my attitude. But... she really do not knows that how nice they treated her daughter... and after all... I calculated it, each pac cost me around $2.80 in ave... so worth it right? Haix...
Nah... my appeal result was out... and it was successful but I was feeling so contradicting. Now I'm not very sure what I really wanna take up... Admin against Accounts... I feel like taking up admin because of the following reasons:
1. It nearer to my house
2. Most of my friends are there
3. Admin gets to learn shorthands which I'm really very interested in now and it also gets to learn the basic of accounts.
And the reasons for me to choose accounts are as follows:
1. After all I've the basic, I'v e gone through the one year basic and I just don't wanna waste it
2. The facilities there, the environment there and a wider social life
3. Chinese Orchestra available will stands a higher chances of me getting over there. Cuz there's once that I told myself that if I happens to get into Simei CO, I'll get myself a personal cello and it can saves me from giving up cello within these 2 to 3 years time.
To be frank... I wished to work in bank, but after much thoughts I think I'll most likely become a office girl means admin clerk after graduated from ITE. Sigh... if there would be one day that I might become a musician... how nice it would be right?
Ryan's... joined a orchestra group and they're paying him $40 for every practice he attened. How great it is... and I wanna wish him all the best in his future endeavour! Tomorrow or should I say later, I'm going to shop for his birthday present. Haha... I'm missing him... opps...
Should I really gets a personal cello, if so, how much should I be reaching out for?
Bear in mind: 1k and 2k cello makes a big difference...
Any suggestion?
I hope I'll luv myself more
23:50
There are always conflicts here and there when working in factory. And now there is conflict in between Soe and the aunty (don't know what's her name). Well, just because of them, I was being shouted and scolded for nothing by her. Sigh... she was the closest colleague of mine in this factory, ever since the Soe Soe matter, there's a big cap in between us. When we talked and tried to find back those happy memories, this conflict spoilted our friendship again. And guess this time round, she was really pissed off. I tried to talk to Salmal, but still I don't wanna worry her... sigh...
Hm... Davi (the office girl) and I starts to get in good term. Haha... this girl very moody and guess everyone at home dote her a lots, and that's why she has attitude problem too. Seldom you will see her smile but still I'll think of ways to make her smile. I told her to smile more too, and forgotten what she said le. Anyway... she's very tall guess 1.7m bah... and very thin... look likes anime character.... cool right?
Oh yah... she's born in Nov 24 checked out with Runni. Haha... her brother.
Anyway, I gotta go shower and go for ex school sectional practice already. Later gonna go to JP with Jo to see what thing I can get for my colleagues as I'm leaving on Wednesday le. Hm... that's all...
I hope I'll luv myself more
10:10
08 June 2005
Remorseful
These few days haven't been concentrate in my work. Balance stock always get 1/6 correct yet always showing attitude when she nagged. And that's why, I tried to give up counting the balance stock but she seems to trust me so much yet I get it wrong again.
Sometimes, it's not our fault. Cuz there's some things that the officer had been doing for us especially me for so long and just because they forgotten yesterday, the balance stock is not tally again. And this time round, I guess she's really frustrated with me and I really felt so remorseful.
I felt so guilty yet I don't have the guts to apologise. I do admit that human beings do makes mistakes but for goodness sake, I know I'm weak in calculating and thus, I should 've done a double check or even triple check! But I just don't bother to do so... sigh... just detest myself so much. Guess I'll only come to sense when she gets scolded. Oh well, what can I do?
Monday received lots of goodies from Soe, Sama and Ah Hui aunty. Haha... soe soe bought everyone of us a tin of sweets! Haha... even though it cost only $0.80, but is the sincerity and thoughts that counts. Sama bought us mango from M'sia... so nice of her but guess dad ate it. Sigh... and Ah Hui aunty gave me a snack... quite nice and I ate almost all myself and that's why having bowel disorder now. Haha...
Nothing much about yesterday's work. Today wise, guess Davi (Office girl, mix blood lady) wasn't in a good mood, she looks so glupmy the whole day, hopefully tomorrow will be a better day for everyone.
Today 've a short conversation with Runni (Storeman, Davi's brother). Now then I get it, he's older and he's also the eldest at home. And Davi was the youngest at home. No wonder Runni was always so protective of Davi. Can tell that he dote her a lot. Haha... despite of all those tantrum that she threw on him each time, he's still so tolerance. Yuppie... Davi was born on 24 Nov... haha... sagittarius people are often like her, moody, mood swings, loner most of the time and not dependent enough. Like MH and Jo... they are the best example that I can give.
Ryan's was selected for the HK trip and he left Singapore yesterday night. Haix... missing him so much.... hope to see him soon. Elgin's dad had his operation, wondering how is he dad feeling right now, hopefully was a successful one and feeling okay and doing fine.
It was so happy that finally my bank have K(s) inside but think very soon, it will be gone. Sigh...
That's about all...
I hope I'll luv myself more
22:52
06 June 2005
Was early this morning but guess I took too much time in handling with my hair and that's why I almost missed bus 79. *Glad* =)
The company employed 4 more persons just to do the 1700 rejects ink catridges, quite a relaxing job isn't it. In additional, can sit down and do. Felt so envious...
Now I finally understand why Sarinah was fond of Faz last time. I actually given him a dressing down this morning even though he was my officer. I was so mad at him cuz he actually loaded the boxes of ink catridges to the lane without doing a checking of the quantity tally with the D/O. And so, everything got delay until 10am plus then we start to run the line.
No matter what kind of attitude and despite my irrespective to him, he is still so nice, caring and humorous. But one weak point of him was that, he's too stingy but stingy people are always rich.
Worked OT today... $12 and I bought the Pantene hair wash for $12.90... sigh... gone, still not yet add my expenses at work. Oh well... there's lots more things that I needs for school in a later time.
Dad was so mad about second brother and guess everyone of us could tell that he touched those things again. Oh well, ever since he broke off with his gf, he played those. Dad said: "Monthly house bills etc you people don't help me pay nevermind. As long as that you don't cause trouble for me." Better let the police caught him and I forbid anyone to go and visit him.
All of us wishes now is to sent him there, there might be a high chance that he'll detest us after he came out and that might also be a high chance that he'll change and start everything afresh again.
It's absolutely fine with me if both my brothers are not with me. All I need was my parents and my sister. Sometimes, I've been into wondering... wondering why am I closer to my non-biological sister instead of my biological brother? I know all of them dote me, second brother too, but I just didn't know what to say to him to ask him stop doing all that things. I care for him... but if I really left with no choice, sending him in is a better choice than ever.
I rather he was caught by police instead of my parents sent him in. Cuz if he really don't appreciate them, he'll eventually detest them. I really do not wish to see that happen.
And one thing that really hurts me a lot was what my dad had said: "The best is that I go and die, and I shall see what you people use to own this house."
I'm vexed now...
Mom's sick... I'm worried about her... and my stupid samsung phone, speaker and mic spoilted. Still 've to bring down to suntec for repair cuz still under warranty. Sigh...
Gotta sent my com for repair, printer and now hp for repair... everything cost me money... fuck!
If I've the money, I really wishes to trade in my lousy hp. And I swear, I'll never ever use samsung phone any more!!!
Nokia 6680 is my target now! But it cost 800 - 900 bucks to be frank, I'd rather use it to buy cello. Sigh...
I hope I'll luv myself more
23:15
05 June 2005
So tiring... have been working from 8 to 4pm for last week and tomorrow gotta back to the office hour, 8 to 5. Haha... although is 1.5hrs more, I still 've to work and bear with it, cuz the salary in between this 1.5hrs makes a big difference.
Love for venus 11 is coming out soon. Haha... not yet finish reading volumn 9 and not even had I touched 10 ever since I bought it. So guess... gotta catch up soon.
Had been practicing cello just now, and I realised that I couldn't even play properly for just one song. But I'll not give up... I'll buck up and practice hard. I'll make sure that I won't give up cello after so many years of hard works. I wanna be like SCO musician... using music to make a living for myself...
Ryan had make it to the Hong Kong Trip, congrat... but not sure when 'll he be leaving... haha... felt so envious... anyway... all the best to him.
I hope I'll luv myself more
22:31
Elated
Last night was the SYCO plays concert and guess it was a successful one. After which, we went to the autograph session to take the autograph of Mr Quek Ling Kiong, Tsung Yeh, Mr Tan Swie Hian and Pei Qian. Haha... afterall, we only want Mr Quek signature... haha... =)
Hm... I didn't know why, my passion for cello starts to come back again. And guess that's a good thing isn't it? Guess I'll be wanting to join the SYCO again next year haha... hopefully and get a new instructor and get to know more friends.
Miss Lee Hua lao shi so much, she's so nice sia... everytime after practice will say "bye bye" to me. Haha...
Quite satisfied with my own performance but still I made some mistakes. Erm... I guess is okay bah... human being do makes mistakes what.
Take leave for today cc practice cuz actually wanna bring my cousin out de. Cuz she came to S'pore on Wednesday and I didn't 've any time to entertain her cuz of practices and preparation for yesterday concert. But it seems like she doesn't want to go out... well... is okay.
Now everything's over and guess I should focus on my practices and also helping my juniors who has shown great potential in cello. Especially Michelle cuz I wanna her to join the SY with us next year. Haha... hopefully all of us are shortlisted.
Sigh... very soon I'll not be working any more. And hopefully I've enough saving to buy cello for myself. Thought of wanting mummy to help me out but best is to use my own money. If not and it happens to be one day that I'm going to give up cello, the she will starts to nag at me. So that's the benefit right?
Hm... that's about all bah...
I hope I'll luv myself more
13:31
